All you need is god

Isaiah 40: 28-31

“But those who hope (have faith) in the lord will renew their strength (heart)” Isaiah 40:31

This verse tell me that I don’t have to reply on my own power to achieve his plan. He is almighty god whose will not get weak or tired, who will always understand me like no others, who capable of giving me strength or energy that I need.

This passage stood out for me because God is trying to tell me that I need to have faith in him, i need to trust and wait for him to work in my life. I must have patient for the things that i asked him. The metaphor of “even a young men will fall and get weak” tells me that even the strongest human being still don’t have the power that he has. Even the strongest person still manage to fail and get weak. However, with faith in him, he will renew my strenth ( my heart in him), and he will give me the necessary strength to complete my task.

This passage applies in my life because I’ve questioned my ability to do the plan he has for me. Not even that, i questioned my strength in changing myself to the person that god intends me to be. I somehow forgot that it’s not humanly possible for me to change myself, and that god is the one with the power of such. He can give me the neccessary tools when needed. Why should I worry about what to say to other about him. I should trust him to work within my heart. I should trust him to change my heart, i should trust him with his plan for me. I should not questioned whether it is possible for me to change, to become a better person.

Thanks to this passage, I know for sure that it is possible for god to change my heart. I just have to pray upon him, have my faith in him, and trust that the result is within his best intention.  I am not alone in this mission, in his plan. He is with me, he has the power, he has the strength, he will guide me through it all.

If I ever have my doubt about myself and my ability, I know that i don’t have to do it alone. I have the almighty God, he will give me the necessary strenght and passion. All I need to do on my part is to have faith in him and my strenght will be review.

No matter how strong you are, you cannot complete his plan without his help

Are you ready for a movement?

This week is Rez week at the University of Texas. I had an opportunity to attend one of the meeting yesterday with this speaker named Trend. I wish I got a chance to go to all of the lecture instead of just one. The speaker was funny and his stories were related exactly to the point he was making. We all have problems with ourselves, our friends, and the world. We all ached for something amaze to happen in our life, and that amazing thing is Jesus, yet no one is responded to him.

I am aching for a movement, I want the wrongs to be corrected, I want all the suffercation in life to be vanished. It’s sad to see how evil has taking all over the world. It’s time that we should ask our father for a movement, to make wrong into right, to help us get out of this horrible world. An interesting point the speaker made is that everyone is aching for a movement, that they want to undo the wrong but because of their lack of direction, ended up with more wrong doing. This explain the unacceptable behavior of the world. They all want to do something to correct the wrong in the world. They believe killing or bring harm to other is the way of solving the situation, while in fact, all they needed is God.

I am blessed to have known him, but I kept asking myself, “Why did God choose me to be his child?” What is that so special about me that make him love me uncontionally? Who am I to deserve his love? The answer I could think of is because he has faith in me, and because he has plan for me that not even I know of. Because he will change my heart, and because he will use me to spread his kingdom.

For these couple of days, I felt his presense in my life. He truthly is an almighty god because I didn’t even ask him to show his presence so that I can believe him. I had my doubt about him, yes, but I didn’t ask him to show himself to me. And because he is our God, he knew my problem better than me, he decided to help me with my faith in him. I strongly felt that he was with me this entire week. He works in my life slowly, but surely. He slowly changes my heart. Oh god, I thank you and I love you.

Another interesting point that Trend bought up is that God is the only one who has the authority to be judgemental. This is something I have to work on. I need not to judge other as I do not want them to judge me. I am a hypocrite because I can do thing to other that I do not want them to do to me. And this week, god has spoken to me about it. All I want to do now is praying for god to change that about me. God, i don’t want to be judge or be talked about, therefore, please help me remember not to judge people. Please help me love all my friends, brother and sister of mine god. Please help fill my heart with joy for others.

In conclusion, I am exciting for what God has plan for me. I am thirsting for him to change this world. I am craving for a movement, for the day that he will return and take over this world that he created.

Much love to God

Thirsty for God’s wisdom

Psalm 63:1-8

In sumary, these verses indicates that as a christian, we need to continue to seek him and worship him. Something stood out for me is that he compares that our needs for him is like a thirsty person for water. He telling me that he is the answer to my problems. He shall make everything better in my life.

I learned that god is my ultimate answer. I need to not chase after the maturity things in life but rather to worship him and spread his news to everyone I know.

God tells me that I have not desired him as much as i should. I should thirst for him, i should hunger for him. I should worship him rather than worship life. I should put his plan for me before my plan. This is something I haven’t done in a long time: to be satisfied with his love and his words, and not to chase the things in life which is not eternity.

His love is better than life.

Is it worth it to invest in love?

Why are we keep on investing in relationship after so many heartaches? There is a saying in Vietnamese which translates into something like “Love is hurt, but it hurts more without love. I rather get hurt and be loved, then not to have love at all”. And I believe i finally understand what’s that mean. I guess I always a romantic girl under all the tough and cold skin. I can finally say that I am in love, or that I am blessed to know what love is. Like Kelly Clarkson song, “A moment like this”, most people have to wait a life time for a moment that I shared with my current boyfriend. I have to admit, I did took him for granted at first, but I’m glad I woke up before it was too late. I am graceful for have found him. I can honestly said I finally know what is to be in love. To have someone i can count on, to have someone who will spoil my ridiculous demand and needs. I know that he might not finacially stable to support me but I know he will always stand by me no matter what. I knew I love him when I was willingly to set aside the fact that I might have to support him financially in the future. But if that mean i get to spend the rest of my life looking into his eyes and hear him laughing with joy. I am now can understand what it means to find joy in him. I am happy when he is happy, something i couldn’t never understand before.

Granted, we fight alot of times over stupid things. We have alot of disagreements. He still make me mad every other days. But i rather be fighting with him than to spend time with anyone else. I want him to be the last person I see before I go to bed and the first person I want to see when I wake up. I don’t know what the future brings. And I don’t know how many times I will get hurt in this relationship, but I would go through all that to have another moment with him.

 I guess what i’m trying to say is: sometimes we have to go through a couple heartaches to get to the good stuff, the loving. And for that my friends, don’t give up love. Keep on trying because I am guarante you, it is worth it, every moments of it.

Hello world!

Hello to all the bloggers out there. I decided to start writing a blog again since I find it to be a great way to capture my though. I used to write a blog, Xanga. I don’t think Xanga is a comparision to this blog. I really exciting to start this blog. And since my friends don’t know my blog, I am free to express my inner thoughts and be truthful to my feelings. Lets a new journey starts.

Why did he had to resurrect?

Since tomorrow is Easter, I want to share something i learned. I learned something very interesting during my small group last monday. One of my small group leader asked us “why did Jesus christ arisen from the death”? Her answer was because: “so that we can have a relationship with him”. That really strike me. It made sense. What set Jesus aparts from other God is that we can have a relationship with him.  He arise from his death so that we can talk to him like a real person. We can’t have a relationship with someone who’s dead right?

 Another interesting point, Faith is like Wind. We can’t see it, but we can feel it. As a christian, we have to answer to our non-christian friends to why would we believe something that we can’t see. And that answer is because we can feel him. I can feel his presence in my daily life, when i allow him to be in the center of my heart. I have to admit, without him, I would not have made it through college. With him, I know I can make it through it all. I know I’ll be okay in a new city, Chicago. I know he will be with me all the way through, like he did through my college experience. Oh how much i am graceful for the people who kept me accountable for my relationship with him. Without them, I wouldn’t be able to have a wonderful relationship with him, and I won’t be able to experience him.

 In conclusion, I wish you all a happy easter. Easter is no longer egg hunting for me. It’s a time to re-evaluate myself. To see whether I live up to my father’s expectations. My mission is to find his purpose for me and live it. Pray for me guys.

Thanks for reading!